You biggest regrets....
| phelen |
 Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:33pm |
 
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I don't why I'm writing this because its so fucking emo but I guess it be interesting to write and get off my chest. Anyway last year I was diagnosed with depression and on medication and had to see a counsellor because I was in such a state. So it was during that time that I received a phone call from Bionyc when I was trying to get my life together, so anyway I went to the interview and landed the job. Now this was such a big fucking relief because it meant they liked me, new life, a company I loved to bits. So things are looking good and I had to look for a place and I don't know why but I got very depressed again despite landing a dream job. I went to the doctor who said I shouldn't move because I could get worse, and the counsellor thought while it was a great opportunity it wasn't a great time to move. So I thought about the advice and I don't know why but I felt I couldn't go, I mean actually couldn't do the move and in the end I had to decline. So now February 2007 I'm thinking how this was the biggest mistake of my life, I should have had the balls to move but I didn't. Damm. |
| Deceptral_Optom... |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:37pm |
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the grass is always greener where theres six roundabouts and half a dozen swings mate, but usually you just have to take the rough with the smooth when you're making a bridge with water under it. |
| defunct |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:38pm |
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Pissing about in dead-end jobs from the age of 18-26 and racking up debts, I could have gone to uni, i'd have the same debts but at least i'd have a degree. It was a case of not knowing what I wanted to do in life mixed with laziness and lacking confidence in myself. Now I have a job which I love and can lead to other things that interest me and just looking back fills me with regret |
| Oasisunit |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:41pm |
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the grass is always greener where theres six roundabouts and half a dozen swings mate, but usually you just have to take the rough with the smooth when you're making a bridge with water under it. you've made some great comments today (no homo), get laid last night or something? |
| guitarfellatio |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:41pm |
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Hiya mate. First off it's not emo! It's called being human and that, know? I'm a firm believer if you have to meander over something a shitload then it's not something you go for. I reckon if you feel it's something you want et al you just get up and do it regardless yanno? Well in most cases anyways. Obviously this wasn't for you at the time and you're well within your rights to feel gutted it didn't happen. Like I said, you're human you ponder about the past and think 'man it does suck mongrel cock I didn't go!' But if you got depressed even after being landed the job and such what's to say you wouldn't have gotten depressed when you moved away? If you're feeling better just now - I don't know if you are; you didn't say - then you could try again with them or someone similar? Hope you feel better, kiddo! |
| El Bongo |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:41pm |
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Not trying at school, maybe quitting college after one day (A half day!!) May sound a bit week but it was only months ago. Edit; Being a complete lazy shit too. |
| Opium |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:43pm |
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Loads of regrets... I regret not coming out when I was 18. I regret doing sooo many class A's between 19 and 25. and I regret typing pretty much every message on this forum. |
| guitarfellatio |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:46pm |
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I regret not taking school serious enough. I also regret two years with an ex-bloke who still thinks 50 Cent is the greatest thing to the human race. I regret spending all my wages this month on too many drugs and not enough gigs. |
| Oasisunit |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:46pm |
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getting into bed with a girl ive liked for a long time but not going all the way with her cause i was too tired at the time and fell asleep.. FUUUUUUUUCK.. definitely the biggest regret ive had in the past few months |
| Deceptral_Optom... |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:49pm |
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the grass is always greener where theres six roundabouts and half a dozen swings mate, but usually you just have to take the rough with the smooth when you're making a bridge with water under it. you've made some great comments today (no homo), get laid last night or something? nah just been really happy since i 'discovered' olives the other day, they are so nice and i feel genuinely uplifted for an hour or so when i eat them so i am eating loads but i think they are good for me? EDIT: and i think i might have concussion from last nights tequila activities, which would explain the blurred and unfocused vision i have developped recently (overnight). but does concussion make you happy? on topic though, i have so many regrets its unreal, ranging from mundane stuff which really bugs me regularly despite being pointless trivialities like not seeing mr. bungle or various other bands or regretting getting clothes or what not, and at the other end of the spectrum stuff which i geniunely wish i'd done. the worst bit is regretting stuff as its happening or 'pregretting' as i call it. good example of this is a lot of my uni work. |
| San |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:49pm |
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A few |
| defunct |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:51pm |
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Mr.Bungle fan DO? I saw them on their Disco Volante tour and they really disappointed me |
| El Bongo |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:53pm |
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A few Poor you, sounds like you've had it rough |
| Deceptral_Optom... |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:53pm |
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love the bungle, specially back in my LSD days, but they are an awesome musical experiance sans halucenagenics! can only dream of how good they would be live proper "zaney". saw patton at leeds other year though, was pretty good. |
| Murakami |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:58pm |
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Phelen , dont get all down on things . We all have regrets , Christ , Ive got loads . The past has happened and theres nowt you can do to change things . Look to the future and make the changes you want . Sorry if that was a bit cheesey but I mean it |
| Jack |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 9:59pm |
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Drugs. Ex-girlfriend. School. Basically. |
| guitarfellatio |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 10:03pm |
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I have another! Not collecting my bottle of half drunk wine I stashed in a bush after seeing a gig last week. I forgot all about it. |
| Deceptral_Optom... |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 10:05pm |
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Ex-girlfriend. as in the one just ended? |
| mc_blue |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 10:08pm |
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I don't think that many people are always happy - it's human emotion to be up and down all the time. Sometimes I feel like shit for doing no work (I've taken a day off from actual work to catch up with Uni and written about 50 words of my four essays due next week) but I've had the odd luck where most things go to plan (decent-ish A-levels, good Uni) but I know it will run out soon. I don’t get out half as much as I should and even as a child although I had a lot of opportunities to I’ve always been quite conservative and boring. I’ve got quite an active mind and think a lot – planning what to do with my time. I end up procrastinating by sitting on fuk! Whenever I feel down I just remember how much better off I am than a lot of people. One who springs to mind is a good friend of mine who has a degenerative illness, which has implications for his balance, coordination etc. In just two years, I’ve seen him go from being slightly off-balance to being confined to a wheelchair whenever he has to go over a great distance. This guy is always happy, gets the most out of everyday and whenever I see him, I remember just how lucky I am to have my family and my health (really cliché I know but it's true). |
| mbs |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 10:12pm |
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Phlen, to me, your 'regret' sounds like a symptom of your mental health problems. self-blame, nrgative thinking, regret can all be linked to depression. |
| ROBBO |
Posted: Sat, 10/02/2007 - 10:22pm |
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ive got a few getting offerd a place at uni when i was 19 but not going to i was 23 a complete waste of four years doing bum jobs. Drink driving- i was at a party about 4 years ago a decidid i was safe to drive but ended up wrapping my car & losing my licance for 18 months( probally the most stupid thing ive done in my life) thats all |
